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Sharea
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Callisto
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 Posted - 08 Sep 2014 : 08:02:14 AM
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| I am so very sorry for your loss, RIP MIstral, and huge hugs to you. |
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Quarabian
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Wales
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Posted - 11 Sep 2014 : 12:26:44 PM
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Heart broken and in pain
I want to fill this gaping hole,and I know if it's meant to be she or he will find me but... |
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DorisDitto
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Pasch
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Posted - 11 Sep 2014 : 2:12:19 PM
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Of course you are in pain…who wouldn't…
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Goldenmane
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Posted - 11 Sep 2014 : 3:00:17 PM
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| They will find you when it's meant to be, early days, I feel for you so much. |
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Pop
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Posted - 11 Sep 2014 : 4:37:03 PM
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| So very sorry for your loss, RIP Mistral. |
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Ari
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Posted - 11 Sep 2014 : 9:06:37 PM
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| Your heart is broken and the pain is horrible in the early days, weeks and months. I have always wanted to fill the gap and it's driven by acknowledging the wonderful relationship you had and the care you want to give. There is a very lucky horse in a field somewhere tonight just waiting for the right moment to find you. |
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Quarabian
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Posted - 12 Sep 2014 : 02:37:21 AM
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Thanks for all your comments.
I will try to tell her story tomorrow Pasch |
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Pasch
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Callisto
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Posted - 12 Sep 2014 : 10:15:46 PM
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Totally appreciate how very difficult it is to talk about this, but when and if you are ready, we will be listening. Big hugs  |
Zahkira (GR Amaretto x Taffetta)
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Kharidian
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England
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Posted - 13 Sep 2014 : 12:15:41 PM
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Oh no, so sorry to hear this Quarabian....I haven't been on AL for a few days (hug).
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Kharidian (Prince Sadik x Khiri)........ Alkara Cassino (H Tobago x Rose Aboud)
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Quarabian
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Posted - 13 Sep 2014 : 11:45:28 PM
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Well it is time. Having replied to Glo's query about euthanasia I feel ready.
The funny coat pattern was probably a reaction by a stressed horse to the Finadine (pain killer) or one of the other injections she was given.
Mistral presented with colic at 10.30 last friday night. Vet arrived quickly and gave finadine which has worked in the past. This was Mistral's 3rd colic in as many months. Non of the other horses have had colic in twenty years and I had recently bragged about this. (Note to self, dont push your luck). My vet knows that money is tight or she would have gone to Liverpool on the first instance but she recovered within an hour of the pain killer on that occassion and also the second occassion. This time she seemed better at first and I checked her half hourly through the night but by 6am she was getting down again and was obviously in pain. Rachel came back quickly, took bloods and went back to check them. In the short period she was gone Mistral got herself cast. I rang Rachel who had by now spoken to experts on colic. She was advised that something was badly wrong to have suffered 3 times so recently. Also as Mistral was hrdly able to stand it would be unfair to transport her to hospital, she could have ended up being put down in the trailer. At this time she was in so much pain she was kneeling or collapsing sideways. The options were bleak, it wasn't about money in the end it was about doing the best thing for her. She was put to sleep by injection in the early morming on saturday just a week ago. (see Glo's post)
She was five years old. I had recently sat on her for the first time and was progressing at her pace towards riding out on the farm. She was my heart's song. But she was a big girl and I considered selling her once started under saddle. At least now I know she will never be treated badly or neglected.
Run free my proud angel. A part of me will be with you forever. |
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Quarabian
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Posted - 14 Sep 2014 : 12:08:24 AM
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Following on from my previous post I missed out that the colic could have been secondary to another problem. It could have been a growth affecting her intestine. We will never know, but somehow that doesn't matter anymore, she is no longer in so much pain.
I joined AL after reading about Buffy and wanting to share my healing wishes for her as many of you did. Thankfully Buffy recovered from her injury which might so easily have proved fatal. At that time I did not even have an arab.
Encouraged by reading about other people's arab horses I sought out and found Palemira. She was the one. But I could not afford her. Susan George kindly agreed to loan her to me while I raised the money to buy her, but I took too long making the decision and she was eventually sold to Alpacasto. She was now only an hour away from me, but not mine. I bought Mistral on the rebound and was besotted wth her. She was headshy and difficult because her owners were ill (not their fault at all) but within two days she was responding to my training and became a very well mannered filly. She even let me wriggle between her back legs when she became entagled in wire (much like Buffy had done) but I felt entirely safe because she knew I was helping her. She filled the void that Palemira had left. Now there is a gaping hole. Many of you will know that to lose a horse is horrible, but to lose an arab is to lose your soul mate. |
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debs
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garnet
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Posted - 14 Sep 2014 : 11:23:29 AM
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| We lost our Irish cob, Jim, 3 days after surgery at Liverpool for a pedunculated lipoma. This was his first and only colic. Nightmare journey up M6, boiling hot day, roadworks, Friday afternoon, only to lose him when we thought he was on the way to recovery. My beautiful Anglo, Autumn Light, died as she was in the closing stages of surgery for a twisted gut. I am telling you this in case you are harbouring any thoughts of if only I'd....... Colic is the absolute pits and although Garnet had several non-surgical colics she recovered quickly and I could relate them to particular causes (change of field). If, God forbid, I had another bad one I think I would PTS at home. It is 27 years since I lost Autumn and 5 for Jim but the memories are still vivid. You won't forget but the pain will ease and you will remember the happy times and know that she was loved and will never know unkindness. I sympathise with all my heart and know what you are going through at the moment. Mistral is running free with many, many much loved horses now. xxxx |
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garnet
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Posted - 14 Sep 2014 : 11:30:59 AM
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| Just wanted to add - when I lost Autumn I thought my world had ended and I didn't know how I would ever live without her - she was my soul mate and my life and I wanted to die too. A month later Garnet came on the scene and she had big shoes to fill but in the 23 years we had together she did fill them, bless her. She wasn't the horse I had gone to see at Vlacq Stud but she stuck her head over the fence while I was trying the Anglo and suggested I buy her instead so I did. There is a horse waiting for you and one day you will find each other. xxxx |
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cmj
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Posted - 14 Sep 2014 : 12:03:54 PM
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I am so sorry this has happened. It is awful. I just wanted to tell you that I personally feel that putting them through colic surgery, and all it entails, ie getting there, can be too much suffering for them. My dad had cancer and at one point had a twisted gut. He was banging his head on the bathroom floor because of the pain. Even on morphine the pain was breaking through. He could explain how bad it was, horses can't. It is only my view and probably many have a good outcome. All I can say is that mine would never go through surgery.
My sympathy is with you, your heart is broken. |
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garnet
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Posted - 14 Sep 2014 : 12:57:42 PM
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| You are right cmj but hindsight is a wonderful thing and at the time we wanted to give them every possible chance. Autumn was operated on at our local vets and I was there holding a leg up, as were 3 of my friends, so there was no long journey, just a nightmare morning beforehand. Jim, as I said, was a nightmare journey but we were so sure he would get better. Liverpool kept us informed at every point and gave us the choice of going ahead or not throughout the 3 days and we kept hoping but in the middle of the night I had to give the go-ahead to let him go. We thought we were doing the right thing at the time and have learned the hard way that perhaps we weren't. As you say, horses do recover fully but many don't and it is a horrible thing to watch. |
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cmj
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Posted - 14 Sep 2014 : 3:27:17 PM
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| Oh Garnet, I am so sorry if you saw this as any sort of criticism. It absolutely wasn't. I'm sure many years ago I too would have tried anything to save one of my babes....just wanted to share what it was like for my dad and how it has shaped my thoughts about what I would do now. |
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FireLight
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Posted - 14 Sep 2014 : 3:32:54 PM
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| I am so sorry for your loss of Mistral, but everything Garnet has said is true. I have had the same situation of two occasions and still have the nightmares. So much so that my last boy to die of colic after the previous two was pts to sleep at home probably too soon but better than watching the pain and agony. |
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Quarabian
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Posted - 14 Sep 2014 : 4:59:02 PM
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Thank you Garnet cmj and firelight for sharing your experiences. It can't be easy to bring it all back again. it is a comfort to know that surgery might have been worse.
don't fall out now!! I know you are all trying to help. I didn't read into it that cmj meant to criticise you Garnet. I suppose we are all sensetive on the subject.
I could have watched Mistral for hours, she was so beautiful and alive. That is how I will remember her. |
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Vik1
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Posted - 14 Sep 2014 : 5:16:42 PM
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| RIP Mistral....Im sorry for your loss. Im sure you have many wonderful memories of her |
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garnet
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Posted - 14 Sep 2014 : 6:24:49 PM
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No cmj I didn't take it as criticism at all and I'm sorry if it came across like that. I just wanted to explain that I have reached the same conclusion as you but unfortunately reached it the hard way, as indeed did you with your poor father. I was just concerned that Quarabian might be thinking that she should have done something differently but the thing is that we do what we think is best at the time and then have to live with it - I can't tell you how many times I have regretted taking Autumn and Jim off the yard but I did then and I wouldn't again.
After I lost Autumn it was many years before I could even talk about her without crying. I hope that by sharing what happened to me it helps Quarabian, and anyone else in the same position, to know that people really do understand what they are going through and that one day the pain will lessen and there will be another horse who needs their love and they will know happiness again. |
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gossy
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Help, anyone seen this.
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